Heart racing. Sweaty palms. Short of breath. Clouded mind.
And ALL EYES are on you.
It’s like living under a huge, unforgiving microscope, with all your flaws & cracks out for the world to see. Ready to be judged and humiliated. It makes total sense why you’d choose to hide. To pretend you’re someone you’re not. To work your tail off just to measure up. To please everyone. And to never, ever, make any mistakes.
Hoping and praying no one notices the agony it takes to do this every…single…day.
That no one see’s the real you.
That no one see’s your kind and hurting heart, fearing they’d just carelessly throw it away.
I know you didn’t just wake up and decide to feel anxious, exposed, and on the verge of breaking. I’m sure there might’ve even been a time when you liked the person you are deep inside. But somewhere along the way it started to feel like that person was not enough.
Everywhere you look, there’s an opinion about who you should be—how you SHOULD dress, look, talk, think, love, and breathe! And no matter how you do the math—you come up short. Not to mention all the times others made you feel like they wished you were different. How can you even trust anyone anymore?
But all the work you’ve put into creating a presentable version of yourself has gone too far. You’ve lost a sense of who you really are. Knowing how you feel, what you like & dislike, and even making day to day decisions has become impossible. And it feels unlikely that anyone else will know the real you either…how could they? The loneliness is deafening.
You know something has gotta change.
I’m here to tell you that you AREN’T the thing that needs changing or fixing. You aren’t damaged goods.
You’re a good person who’s gotten lost, beaten, and torn down while trying to be the best version of yourself…while trying to love…and be loved. A noble endeavor by any account.
You don’t have to find your way back alone.